2019 could not have gotten here quick enough for me. Every day of the last few weeks of 2018 I was wishing the days would just wiz right by.
It seems I feel this way every year.
So I decided to sit my booty down with a full glass of red (California Roots Cabernet is my fav) and reflect on what 2018 gave me and also what it took away from me.
So I started with what it took away.
Let me define the above events.
Sleep - I just moved to KC and spent most of my time in moments of wondering where I was and how do I get from point A to point B. I swear I used google maps for the first 6 months to get EVERYWHERE. The “Around Me” app was my newest best friend. I also started a new job 2 days after I arrived and boy did I struggle with learning new systems…….STRUGGLE!!!! By the end of the day I was exhausted and ready top fall into bed to sleep.
Sanity - See above. I honestly felt like I was losing it more often than not most days.
Hope - I spent so many mornings stating I HOPE I make it through the day in one piece. DAILY, y’all. Some days weren’t very magical.
Belief - After the effects of the above 3 experiences I was beginning to lose all belief in myself. My belief that I had a grip on my life. My belief in humanity. My belief in the Universe and what it had in store for me.
I poured myself another healthy glass of red and began to reflect on all of the good and happy highlights of 2018.
Phew. The list was adding up pretty nicely. This is how it went…..
Family - Well, that’s what brought me to KC in the first place. Nothing like the bond and love of family to get you to pack up, sell your house, resign from your job, and tell your Mom and BFF goodbye. Was it easy? NOPE! Was it worth it? ABSOLUTELY.
Friendship - I’ve met new friends here in KC in fact my first new friend was within the first week of living here and we are still friends. I’ve met new people who only lasted a short time as friends but that’s okay, you’ve got to meet people to know who will be that person you call friend.
Success - Oh, this word has some many meanings for me. First, I did eventually stop using google maps to find my way home, HUGE SUCCESS!! I did learn all the new systems at my job (thanks goodness). I started feeling hopeful again. I started believing in myself again. I had success with The Onyx Feather. I had success with friendships.
Health - I began and maintained (for the first time since college) a workout regimen and actually tone up and started to regain some strength I had lost with some previous injuries. I got the guts to have my varicose veins worked on and WOW what a difference it made in how my legs feel, no more heaviness, less swelling, no more pain when sitting or standing and my legs look better.
Future - My future is here in KC. My girls are here. I love the area. I have even found….well, don’t want to jinx it so I’ll keep that under wraps for a bit longer. : )
I could have easily held onto all the struggles of 2018 and made that my year. But., I didn’t. What I’m going to do it make it a habit at the close of each year to sit down and reflect on everything. The good. The bad. and The ugly. Reflecting on the bad and ugly is to help me make changes where changes can be made so there is more good for the new year.
Cheers to a prosperous 2019.
Take a moment to reflect on 2018 and see what kind of year you actually had.